warm and windy ... tuesday

what a warm and windy day today...it was like 95 here today and the winds were gusty...after living in kansas it is something that you never really feel on the east coast ...where i am from...just an odd feeling still to me...

i know it has been over a week since my last post...but i really have done a lot of thinking since my last blog...that was right around my birthday...53...some days i feel really old...some days not so old...i woke up on my birthday feeling kind of sad ...missing my mom and dad...the iced angel food cake...being the queen for the day...when i was young my birthday fell on or near the last day of school...many of those days were spent at the princess anne swim club...and to add to me missing home...alan has had some very good job offers that were very close to our hometown...so there were many what ifs...floating around in my 53 year old brain...my mind ran all day and then... when the sweetest little 3 year old walked into our home with a card she had made for me (with the help of her mama) with a mouse on it...and everyone knows i HATE mice...they make ginny scream....and journey loves it when her ginny screams at mice...her smile and  that laugh as i screamed...priceless...the best gift ever and everyone knows how i feel about presents...at that moment i knew there really is never any going back home ever...this is home ....that little girl completes me and i know in about 9 weeks i will be blessed with another granddaughter...who i have already fallen in love with...this coming from a person who never really wanted grandchildren...

yes i said it...i never wanted my 4 children to grow up and leave our home...it still makes me sad...but i did come to enjoy the neat and clean house...everything in its place...you can not have that with children around...but from the day journey was born she melted this ginny's heart...and it is true when you have had enough...you can send them home...and yes when the house gets a mess...i take it better...cause i am the ginny...journey and i have fun together...and my daughter michelle never has really been around small children and that is funny to watch as well...and it did not take long for journey to know just how to pull her aunt mimi's strings either...journey has really been a journey for me...full circle...and just some how i just know i could never leave her and go home again...i am home ...night all  :)